My friend from the Teaching Agency rang in Friday, to ask how I was. After a chat about my health and the pattern of my days [most of which involve a mid-day rest] we agreed that I'm still not strong enough to do a full day in the class room. "I shall de-activate your file, until you are fully recovered" she said "so you won't feel under any pressure".
I think it was a wise decision.
I told my friend I'd been deactivated - and she said "You are like a robot who has been switched off!"
I was hoping to be considered something a little more glamorous than an inert robot -
like a sleeping Wonderwoman, perhaps?
But I acknowledge the reality of the situation - I need to recharge my batteries fully, before trying to get back to being busy every day.
Friends continue to be so kind- thank you E&A for the lovely card last week, you know who you are [I nearly typed A&E, but then people might worry I was back at the hospital!]
Bless made a very helpful comment yesterday - whilst waiting, and resting for renewed strength, it is important to 'live in the moment'. We knew Saturday would be tiring [our annual Ferndown Fete on the Field] and then Sunday morning Church isis usually wonderful, but exhausting. So we decided to treat ourselves to Sunday Lunch at a local carvery. It was really lovely to be able to enjoy a good meal together, prepared by somebody else, and relax and chat with no external pressures.
I am determined not to fall into the trap of constantly regretting the things I am currently unable to do - that way lies depression and misery. Rather I shall revel in the good things, the little achievements - the small moments as my dear friend Elizabeth has entitled her blog. The Old Testament prophet Zechariah urged people "do not despise the day of small things"
One step at a time, and I shall get there eventually. And I will take my time, and enjoy the journey!
Some weeks ago you quoted the verse: ‘This is the day the Lord have made, rejoice and be glad’. (THIS is the day....)
ReplyDeleteGlad to know that I helped! :) Yes, rejoice in what you are able to do, today. That is what I try to tell myself, too. I'm glad you were able to go out to lunch, today. I went to a friend's house for a prayer gathering and lunch. She lent me one of her books to read; she read a chapter from it at the prayer gathering, today.
ReplyDeleteThank you Bless. Glad you could lunch with a friend too!
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ReplyDeleteThank you for this post. It's very timely as I’m struggling with regret and frustration about things that I can't do at present.
ReplyDeleteIn my case I may never be able to do some of them again.
I will copy out some of your post to remind myself to live in the moment.
Sue
Sue, I am sorry that you too are struggling with the things you're unable to manage right now. It is not easy to turn frustration and regret into positive memories of what you HAVE achieved, and gratitude for what you can STILL achieve. Check out this poem about time, which I blogged about , last year - before I knew what was ahead of me. http://angalmond.blogspot.com/2018/11/time-after-time.html
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ReplyDeleteElizabeth, thank you - I have learned so much from you, dear friend, about the wisdom of appreciating small things, and taking each day as it comes. I'm sitting here at my desk with a cup of tea- but in my mind, I am sitting in your garden, enjoying the sight and scents of the flowers!
DeleteMay you recuperate fully!! There is a time to work and a time to rest.
ReplyDeleteAng, did I say something that upset you in my comment? I see it has been removed. I'm sorry if anything I wrote was not suitable.
ReplyDeleteI'm honestly not sure where the comment went - it certainly wasn't removed deliberately. I really appreciated what you said about small moments and learning to pace myself. I DID delete an unwanted spam comment, I apologise that I might have somehow lost your wise words as well. My apologies
DeleteGlad there was no problem. Spam can be a pain also.
DeleteYes. Take care and that involves balancing things I think which sometimes means resting but somethimes we get energy from the things we love to do and the people we love to be with - like I said - I think it's a balance. (Not an expert)
ReplyDeleteYou may end up being more satisfied with doing less - I am gradually getting used to being retired. Cheers
ReplyDeleteNow that I am a senior citizen I am embracing small things. Mother Theresa spoke about doing small things with great love. Have a beautiful week.
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